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"Jesus sheds tears at the visible absence of God in the world where the good and bad alike go down to defeat and death. He sheds his tears at the audible silence of God at those moments especially when a word from Him would mean the difference between life and death, or at the deafness of men which prevents their hearing Him, the blindness of men which prevents even Jesus himself as a man from seeing Him to the extent that at the moment of all moments when he needs Him most he cries out his Eloi Eloi, which is a cry so dark that of the 4 evangelists, only 2 of them have the stomach to record it as the last word he spoke while he still had a human mouth to speak with. Jesus wept, we all weep, because even when man is good, even when he is Jesus,God makes himself scarce for reasons that no theodicy has ever fathomed."

cartman

Well, in the words of Cartman..."screw you,I'm going home." We have made a critical decision as far as our dream of living on the farm...we decided to just live OUR lives how we want/need to live them. Sorry you 4 who voted for your share of the $$, but you will have to wait until our untimely death to recieve your inheritance...then YOU can live YOUR dreams! We will keep OUR dream intact and ponder the correct time to build our log home there on the land that your ancestors grew up on. Grandma was tellig me yesterday about all the days she can remember climbing in the tree that is next to Fritz's barn, to read her books. I have my memories there, you and your children do as well. You will have to decide for yourselves what YOU want to do with it..as for me and my house, we are keeping it.I have lived ALL my life for someone else, and this has been my dream since I was a child...not gonna give it up so easily just for the almighty dollar, as we Americans are so set on doing most of the time!Seems like not much is sacred anymore..well to me, my land IS.
Had some tornados blow through here last night with some much needed rain...and some cool air to boot! No more 90's!! Dad's foot is good, I am getting a root canal today, the dogs say hello and all is well.

FREAK

Okay...latest news...dad had a little "freak" accident on his bike yesterday!! He just has a twisted knee (we think, but he will go to the doctor tomorrow just to get it checked out! We had just finished lunch at a pizza place which just happened to have a gravel parking lot..not good to begin with. He had both feet on the ground, going slowly, and his right foot slipped on the gravel, pinning his knee under the car next to him...3 guys had to come out of the restaurant and get the bike off of him. He was a little queasy, but bravely made it home..we were at Fort Gibson lake east of Wagoner. He has been taking it easy and putting ice on it...I am sure I will be reprimanded for putting this on the blog site for all to see, but hey....life happens, and along the way a few "freak" things go on!!!!!

PROD

So...Music...depends on my mood,as it does everyone I am sure. Right now it has been some Waterdeep and Jars of Clay.I have needed the spiritual lift. The only "new" thing I have listened to that I like has been Sufjan. Tried the "jacket" thing Josh, but couldn't get into it yet...need to download the album from you and give it some time to sink in. Books....are always in abundance!! Just finished a Henri Nouwen book called THE SACRED JOURNEY. He was a renowned priest and author, respected professor and beloved pastor who wrote over 40 books on the spiritual life. He is one of my 5 favorite authors! You will see him quoted in the journals that I keep that you will be BOUND to read when I am gone! The other one I am reading right now, is one called HEARTS CRY by my beloved therapist, Dr. Armentrout! It is a book on depression, which, as you know, I struggle with. This is the 2nd time I have read this one. I go back to see him occasionally, just for a "tune up"! It is a struggle I will probably have all my life, but it gets better the more I learn about it and the more help I get, and the more of my own head work that I do. I figure I go to the doctor every year to get a check up, mamorgram,blood work...I go to the dentist every 6 months, I get my eyes checked at least every 2 years, so why would I want my BODY sound and not my mind?!! So...it just makes sense to keep my mind and emotions checked on a regular basis too. Anyway...we are going on a bike ride today,(which is a therapy in itself)...don't know where yet, but it is suppose to be only in the upper 80's today and then get scorching HOT tommorow in the 90's!! We went from spring to summer in about a week I think. There you have it for now Josh! Now...you work on yours too!! It is always fun to read others blogs, and a pain to do your own it seems..I guess I am too worried about what others will think...HOW OLD AM I?!! Oh YEAH..old enough to know that THAT has NEVER worked out for me...thanks for the prod eldest...

nada

So...nothing much goes on here at nanny/mimi and papa's house..started up the lawn mowing...had to take it in for repairs already, then the edger died and had to get a new one...LOTS of watering(daily)cuz we are still banned from burning...think we might have to just go to apartment living or stillwater land living...no yard in one and goats in the other for lawn mowing...oh yeah...that's right...our kids think we should SELL the farm, NOT build our dream house there, TAKE the $$ and RUN...well, when we are dead you can do whatever you want with all this STUFF!! Oh yeah...Heidi, don't get any ideas of premature death...42.

Lucky

I have just returned from a wonderful time with my middle grandchild!! She is beautiful, talented, brilliant, energetic, imaginative, (can spell better than me), and I totally enjoyed being with her!! Can't tell,can ya. Anyway, I am SOOO lucky because ALL my grandchildren are these things!!! I do deserve it though after raising 4 boys.... Am recovering today and trying to clean up the house...and yard...turned my small but ample garden today and planted spinach, lettuce, radishes, and cukes!! It is just a crap shoot in Oklahoma as to what, if anything you planted will come up. It will be in the 80's here this week and these are all cool weather plants. So I may be screwed. Oh well, as the song I learned this week from Brooke goes,(the one that keeps going over and over in my head because she played it all day, every day, and it is branded in my brain!)"no need to be sighing, you better stop crying because theres always a way"...or something to that effect. So my garden is offically started!! Can't wait for the reaping part!! It is good to be home, but I sure do miss all my kids....
p.s. the fresh caught Wisconsin Walleye was indeed and true delight!!! Thanks Luke