Please dear God

I hope I NEVER have to see my children or grand childrens death....I wanna go first....I hope I don't have to see my husband die either! Not that death scares me...as a matter of fact, the sooner the better as far as I am concerned, but having my heart broken here on earth is a worse death than any physical death I can think of! This old ticker of mine is a little hypersensitive and the mental and emotional anguishes are SOOOOOOOO much more painful...at least this has been my own experience. There you have it. I am a mental and emotional baby. I admit it. And so be it amen.