OMGRAVY

Really?!! It has been 5 months since I blogged anything?!! I confess....I didn't even finish the questions I intended to answer....I failed....but He is unfailing.....I give up....He does not....I am guilty....He took it from me.....I am my Beloveds and He is mine....I continually am overwhelmed by my life, both the good and the bad.....anyone else ever feel like that?! OH! That's right!!! Nobody is really "out there"!!! BAAAAAAAAHAHAHAHAA! So.....I journal almost everyday and sometimes I wish to journal here....just to get it off me chest I guess....so...here is my "chest", my "heart" my "soul", and my "mind"(or what is left of it!) born to you all! All you Internet-socially active (not) peeps out there, who like me, on occasion read or actually write, in a blog.....welcome.
Sooooo....lots of life changes in the past 5 months...but then, hopefully life IS full of changes, much better than being stagnant I suppose. Rick quit his job of almost 30 years. And with no fanfare, with only a month of non-employment, now has the privilege of another job in the moving business yet without all the intensity and expectations of the former life he led....he is finding himself again after almost 40 years of being lost to himself, to me and to God....I have never been prouder of him....he IS indeed a new creature and amazes me with his ever changing life. We put our house up for sale, but have absolutely NO IDEA where our God will send us.....tired of trying to figure it out, we are doing what should have been done all along, which is to seize this, the only day I have, and live it to its fullest....one day at a time. To trust, have faith, believe...all the "sayings" we have heard all of our lives, now being practiced in its fullest form....carpe diem.....finally...a chance to practice yet again, all I have come to believe in. At this point in my life, I have not one thing to loose and all that is important to real life to gain.

Simplicity

Stillness

Sacrifice

Solitude

So much that is vastly overlooked by the ever busy crowds that surround me....I long for the days of front porch friends....Of family diners.....of playing with a cigar box and dirt.....yes, I know.....a Norman Rockwell picture I am sure, but it takes me to a much simpler time in my life.......but that simplicity is mine to have even now if I but reach for it.....and I have. To maintain that stillness in the midst of these times is indeed a challenge, but well worth the effort it takes....breath.....listen.....care.....think....how often do we participate in these things in our own busy lives? Well....lets roll....

Someone

who has made your life worth living for...#7. In the beginning it was my boys. My boys turned into my grandchildren...then after a cataclysmic separation from my husband of 36 years, it has now shifted my world to where it should have been all those years...my husband.....not only does he make my life worth living, but makes living here tolerable....nay, more bearable. You see, being born a melancholic person there are days when there is simply nothing here that seems to make it tolerable to stay on this side of that dark curtain. The perceived or real pain makes this side of life very unbearable to the mind...and to the heart at times. So, at times there simply seems like there is nothing that would make this life worth living for. Upon second glance, and I do have to take many more of those than most people, there are things that indeed make my life in need of living....thank you Rick, for staying with me, for walking beside me, for holding my hand and my head during those times when to my way of thinking it is not worth it.....